February 07, 2007

Everybody's Fool

It's Fashion Week in NYC, and for those of us who used to work the runway and were called "hangers", its simply a painful reminder of that life. I think this video encapsulates better than any post I could write, what it was like for me during that period. The lessons I learned back then: you can only live a lie for so long before it begins to destroy your psyche & soul. Self-love and inner peace can only be attained from within and not by wearing, attaining, seeking something outside of ourselves.

Having learned that lesson well, I will deliver a speech with confidence and a centered and calm inner spirit (as main speaker) during a gala dinner fundraiser this evenng. The other 2 speakers and presenter are a prominent TV personaility, a broadway actress and a tv/movie actress. [Colin owes me big time for this favor!] I met the movie actress last Fri during a dry run and she was a scared, insecure bundle of nerves, that kept seeking approval and wanted to be admired. I really felt for her because I've been there. It's an industry of externals which have to be perfect.

Anyway, the first 12 sec. of this video by Evanescence is an intro, not a gag, so please watch it, its only 3 min.

Posted by Michele at February 7, 2007 11:06 PM

I think you should write about that time anyway as it would help others.

Posted by: Li at February 6, 2007 09:06 AM

Your timing is eerie. Seriously.

Great post!

Posted by: Tammi at February 6, 2007 11:17 PM

Hope all went well. Fashion industry, too, huh? And you thought I was multifaceted.

Posted by: RSM at February 7, 2007 06:24 AM

Powerful stuff. Thanks Michele...

Posted by: Richmond at February 7, 2007 10:11 AM

You don't have to have lived the life of the fashion industry to fall into the life of the lies...

Posted by: Bou at February 8, 2007 10:48 AM

Ditto what Bou just said... That video was kinda rough to watch. And the "life of lies" doesn't necessarily have to be about the glitz and glamour of the fashion industry or even of living the 'high-life.' Sometimes it's merely a matter of self-preservation.

I'm a pro at wearing the calm, confident exterior that belies what's really going on in my life. (As a friend once told me, I'm a "Sh!# Magnet" - through no fault of my own - it just finds me. See my blog for some examples I've shared.) After literally decades of make-believe that nothing is wrong, people just assume that... well... Nothing is wrong.

Thank God for my 'funny-bone' - and blogging! I've only been doing it for a few months now, but I'm addicted. Thanks for stopping by. I'll have to make this a regular stop on my rounds as well!

Posted by: Bitterroot at February 8, 2007 07:23 PM