October 15, 2006

Okay, Okay, Okay....

I'm getting a bit self-conscious and embarrassed from all the attention. Believe me it is all greatly appreciated. I'm just not used to it. I'm more comfortable being invisible, the unnoticed one; the one that always flies under the radar undetected. So all I can humbly say is thank you. Thank you for all the support and kind words. Thank You for making a rough and challenging week easier. And thank you for not letting me sit home all alone with my thoughts and coaxing me out of my shell with your comments, emails and text messages.

The turn around began in earnest when I started to receive them; it continued with a long phone call in the middle of the night Friday morning, from a professional comedian friend of mine who read my blog. At around 2am Friday he had just finished a show and decided to call to cheer me up. At one point he had me laughing so hard that I was gasping for air and had tears in my eyes. That helped my outlook Friday and the day went a lot easier and faster. My co-workers also helped by picking up my lunch for me on both Thursday and Friday and helping with anything I needed. Iím grateful that work is slow and it will continue to be that way until election day. By then I should be feeling 100%.

Some of the kids I have mentored in the past stopped by midday yesterday to help with small chores and errands, which made me even more grateful and made me believe that I had an angel looking out for me. Last night, while laying on the couch getting bummed out as I watched my Mets loose horribly, I began getting text messages from several bloggers that I really respect and admire. To one of them I wanted to text ďIím not worthyĒ but heís already told me once to cut that out and not go there, so I didnít. This morning I got a call from the firefighters who worked the rescue with me last Sunday. They were on duty and were checking in on how I was doing. Theyíre a great group of guys who were also fun to talk to. One of them, who has done 2 tours in Iraq, gave me pointers on what to do about the rescue related nightmares and flashbacks For that bit alone Iím most grateful, because now I have tools to work through some of the challenging stuff that has been going on in my head recently.

In truth, I have felt the same way about all your wonderful comments and messages. They have all been good for the soul; and they have all helped me in one way or another. I still donít feel much like a hero because I did what any decent abled body human being should do in the same situation. In fact, in NYC itís a crime not to help someone in need. Sad isnít it that we need such a law on the books, but there it is. So for today, all thatís left hurting are from my trapezoids to the base of my skull, which are being treated with some state of the art patches I was given by my orthopedist Friday. They feel good, but I donít know about wearing these patches on my clothes. I donít like drawing attention to myself, and well, wearing these over your clothes you canít help but draw attention to yourself. The good thing is that my suit jacket will cover these things tomorrow AND thereís no granny smell. I seem to getting tendonitis in both my elbows, but I think my texting to the different people yesterday for a couple of hours has more to do with that than anything else. My calves and hamstrings are no longer cramping and getting spasms, but for the life of me I donít understand why my glutes are still hurting. All this pain defies comprehension. My orthopedist gave me rational explanations for what happened and found bruises on my back to explain it all. Apparently, I was slammed repeatedly against the rocks and just didnít realize how hard.

So for today, Iíll just continue relaxing, watching football in the daytime, baseball at night and live in dread of losing the bet to my blog bro Jon. Darn, I really was hoping to overhaul his site. I thought lavender and pink with cute lite airy bubbles would look smashing on his macho site. I even made drawings of what I wanted to do to it too. Guess it was the drug induced cockiness that made me talk of sporting a bathing suit and posting it on my blog for a week if I lost. WHAT WAS I THINKING???!!!!!

Anyway, as you can tell, Iím feeling much better emotionally too. Maybe what Iíll do is post some of the jokes my comedian friend told me once I get clearance from him. They were hysterical and much better than some of the jokes Redneck has been posting at his site. I think he should just stick to fishing advice. He does better at that than his jokes and predictions. BTW, Redneck, that last swipe is so youíll leave my blog-sis and Michigan alone.

Posted by Michele at October 15, 2006 03:05 PM | TrackBack

So glad to read you are feeling better. But then again, you are just about the strongest person I know.

Did I mention in 2 weeks we'll be having dinner? Yeah, can you believe it?!?!?!?


Posted by: Tammi at October 15, 2006 06:43 PM

I am so glad you are feeling better. If you ever want to vent, the bug can tell you how to get ahold of me.

Posted by: Tink at October 15, 2006 09:04 PM

Oh I am so glad that you are feeling better. Now if all of the risidual pain could just go away! And if the Mets could win one too!

Posted by: Richmond at October 16, 2006 12:36 PM

Good to hear.

And the glutes? It's because they work differently and you use them so much for everything -- it always takes a day or three extra before they react to whatever stress they get.

Posted by: Ogre at October 18, 2006 10:37 AM

Ok, you don't like my jokes? What'd doc' give you for that Meatchicken lover...? Your blog-sis and I squared away the details of the bet long ago, and I'll honor 'em. I know I'm just askin' for "ladies night" at the 'Neckshack, by runnin' the smack I am, but hell, I'm thinkin', if I win this one, there'll be 3, count 'em 3 female bloggers blogs that have officially "snap" been 'Necked.

You want fishin' advice? Get ESPN2. You want sick humor and a doofus behind the wheel, come on back... ;) Tammi had me beat, Choue had me beat, now, Qdub's got me beat. Truth be told, I think she's the closest to beatin' my "prediction". Rivalry games... anything can happen, here or in ash harbor.

Glad you're feelin' better and those patches... aren't they supposed to go on the "skin"? If you where 'em on the outside, I think you clothes get all the pain relief... I'm just sayin'.

Just so you can laugh, I'll drop a shorty on you...

"It was reported that the Michigan Football Coach Lloyd Carr will only be dressing 20 players for the Ohio State game this Saturday...the rest of
the players will have to dress themselves!"


Posted by: RedNeck at October 19, 2006 08:12 PM